I miss work.  Work became who I was in several ways. It builds self-worth to get a paycheck.

Disability is difficult, but I am not a faucet to be shut off. I decided to go for disability last summer.  I did not quit the day I resigned.  It is important to me to be professional until the end.  I was going to work out a two-week notice.

The storeowner has evolved from boss to friend.  He was very understanding of MS, and he allowed me to manage my workload according to ability.  MS had become obvious and we played the situation based on need of the moment.  He also had health issues, but post knee surgery he was doing great.

Second to last day, we got a new model television.  A big one, not very heavy the new models are lighter.  I opened the box, got out the stand, packaging and papers.

“Want to get this out.  I wanna see it,” he announced.  The killer question came,  “Can you handle it.”  All the other employees were out in the field.

I did not hesitate.  The TV was supposed to be the last, latest and greatest.  And lightest.  “Sure,” came my cocky response. 

We lifted it.  I struggled and held up my end.  As we got it to chest level to place it on the stand, the boss crumbled.

“MY KNEE.” he yelled as his body twisted away. 

Reflex, react, we are a small store and can’t afford to drop this expensive piece of equipment.

No time to think.  Crash will happen NOW. 

Somehow I got my last moment of strength.  I went and put my hand on the opposite side where the boss had been.

GOT IT! 

I saved the TV and put it down gently.  No broken set no problem.

“How did you do that?” he asked.

“Don’t know, don’t care.  Set is okay,” I responded.  “Need the doctor?”

The timing was long before I had CCSVI.  I had settled into the rut of no improvement.  But for a moment when I had no hope of improvement, a ray of  hope that I could get better. 

We all know of an adrenalin rush during emergencies to allow incredible accomplishments. 

I was there.  I did it.  Boss was fine.  And I had a moment where I felt that I might get better and beat this monster.

Fighting keeps life forces going.  Give up nothing.  Every piece of improvement is priceless.

Power to the People.  Power to the Cure.