Every night as I go to bed, I say a prayer of thanks and questions.

Thank you for my children.

Thank you for my animals, house and things.

Thank you for my wife, who makes so much for all of us.

What have I done today?

What will I do tomorrow?

In the morning I rise in a similar way.

Upon getting conscious, I do a check.

I feel extremities.  Not touch, rather do I know the feet and toes are there.  Wiggle toes a little.  Tighten leg muscles.  Breathe and feel my chest move.  Wiggle fingers.  Shoulder roll.  Neck side to side.

I do all of this horizontal in bed.

And I say a prayer of thanks for the parts of my body still functioning.

A pilot would call this a “Systems Check.”

I have no name for this daily activity, but I do these things as a test.

If something fails, I am quickly aware and look for solutions.  I do not recall the last time I failed one of my checks.

But I do them to affirm life and basic abilities.

The movie “The Bucket List” is one of my favorites.  The idea of a metaphorical list of things to do before you die is interesting.

My Bucket List is ongoing.  And it has evolved into an existence. 

For me, “The Bucket List “is far more basic and a dual sided blade.

When was the last time I did something, and what do I want to do now?

Death is not present in the conversation.  I just want to appreciate what I have done and look forward to what I will do.

Or what I pray I will do.

When I was thinking about this it became a series of life events asking when was the last.

The last time I went to a football game?  Tulane vs. Rice with my Godmother, friends and my son.  Last Saints game?  Saints vs. Cardinals was with a friend and my son.

Last Mardi Gras parade?  Cold night in front of the store I used to work at.  I was working at the time.

The list is endless. 

But wonderful.

The memories are priceless. 

My next focus is on my bucket list of things I want to accomplish daily.

Walk.  Think. Feel.  Hug.  Have emotions that are real and deep.

Be there for my wife and children.

I am not the life partner I wanted to be, but I strive to be the best one I can be.

Long term my goals are shared by many of you.

CURE THIS CONDITION.

DO NOT WORRY ABOUT WHAT WILL STOP WORKING.

MAKE LIFE CHOICES BASED ON WANTS AND DESIRES, NOT COMPROMISED ABILITIES.

Sorry to shout, but I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

Thank you all for reading.

I love and appreciate your comments.

Power to the People.

Power to the Cure.