Over the past few weeks, I have been losing thougts.  Not being forgetful, but that has happened.  Not missing details, but that happens.  Rather forgetting the unimportant.

I do "Mental aerobics".  The process is quizzing myself on things I know.  I am good at trivia and try to keep my thoughts loose and easy. 

Pre-procedure, which failed, my wife and daughter were very negative about the prospects.  I called them "Nattering nabobs of negativism." I stole this from an old politician, Spiro Agnew. Agnew was Nixon's vice president. Governor of Maryland.  Resigned and went to jail.

I know all about this man.  I know many of his previous positions and other important factoids.

I knew the quote,

 I just forgot his name.

Frustration raged in my mind.  The simple fact could be quickly found in a google search, but this thought had been easy on my tongue for decades. 

And I had lost it.  Frustating. 

I called a friend before googleing the answer and he knew it immediaely.  And I had forgotten. 

The events described are not getting old, this is MS rearing its ugly head.

After my procedure failed, I had drinks with friends who drive 60 miles to console. Our conversation turned and turned and went to physician assisted suiside (not for me).  The term most often used is euthanasia.   I even had a cute joke to answer :what do you think about euthenasia?  I do not know, how about old age in Arica would be the  quick answer.

I could not think of the word euthenasia. 

I am very concerned about losing this part of my brain. 

I am meeting with neurological rehab tomorrow.

I want them to help repair my brain.

I will fight as usual, tough and no compromises.