Sorry to have been away for so long.

My life is okay as it goes.  CCSVI accomplishments have somewhat faded.  But Bowel bladder improvements still holding which is nice.  Went off the diet at Thanksgiving and put on 13 pounds.

Still married.  I offered divorce  but she refused.   Sucks to watch me go down, and I just wanted to offer her a door out.

Kids are moving to teen age years.  No boyfiend/girlfriend dramas, but I see them coming.

My mother (widowed) went to New York with her fiancé and brought back gifts for the grandkids including a tshirt for her grandson who weighs over 100 pounds that might not it a 70 pound girl.  

Today, wife is stressed with work (nothing different).

Children bicker as they get home.  Physical pushing and such.

And they get loud,  I try to break it up an fail.

And they get worse.

Finally the girl walks to a friend's house nearby.

I have it our with our son who has generally been the easier of our kids.  He (hits is too strong as he is responding to a kick to the genitals from his sister) and the yelling gets more intense.

They got home at 4:11 (yes, exact time) and by 4:13 the bickering was on.

At 4:50 I asked for and for got a hydrocodone (1/10 morphine).  Normally that calms me.

By 5:10 I felt a swirl starts i my back that indicates an MS exacerbation.

6:55  Wife gets home and complains of exhaustion.  All done for her except for making her food, which I know she likes aha she likes.

7:00 blame game starts between kids.

At 7:20 family group up to discuss extreme bickering.

Daughter says I ask her to do too much (I ask her to walk a dog and feed her rabbit that she begged for).

I was sitting for over 45 minute.  Too long on butt.

When I go to get ready for bed, we discuss the Jodi Arias trial where a girl butchered her boyfriend.  I speak in a crass manner about the case (wife believes the girl is not guilty because boy was abusive).   I feel the man (boy) had never had a sexual relationship with a girl willing to do ALL (emphassis intended).

I say he never had "pussy" like hers and now wants some "strange."

Wife freaks out at me.  Wife and I have not been intimate since June 15, 2010.   And that kills me and she knows  it.

Last time we discussed the lack of intimacy she said she can't stand to see me in decline.  Fine, but I am still alive and have the same desires.  I am completely head over heels in love with her.  After 18+ years, I should not be so attracted to her. Wrong as I see it.  Beyond respect and all such, she still turns me on walking in the room.

So we bicker now.

And a major storm front is coming tonight and one our dogs will likely freak. I lead our bedroom likely not to return tonight.

She bitches that I am worse since first acupuncture (a her suggetion).

I know that my right ankle flexed for the first time in two years (I showed her).

And she suggests that I go to our evacuation house for a few days away.

Anything else that can be slammed into today?

As I type, I think I should push my luck and goto Florida for a stem cell treatment.

If I am going down, I will go down fighting.

Thank you for reading.

Power to the people.

Power to the cure.